God, today was hard. I did my best to seek you and to find comfort in you. I told myself that you are in control and that I should not lose hope. Nevertheless, today was hard. I felt alone and that no one understood my pain and struggle. I called out your name today... I couldn't hear your answer. I know that you have a plan for me and that you ask me to trust you even when things are unclear. I'm trying my best to do that, but sometimes it's hard... like today.
I'm tired of being sick. I'm tired of fighting off worry. I'm tired of trying to resist despair. Lord, I am weak and lonely. I want this part to be over. But you are still my strength and my ever present help in time of need. Whether or not I feel it, I know the truth that you are sovereign over all things, that your mercy triumphs over judgement, that your love covers a multitude of shortcomings.
Though the days are evil, you are good. You are our good father who watches over his children in times of trouble and doubt. You hold us close and sing over us until our hearts are filled with peace. Would you grant us rest as we lay our heads down tonight and wake us up to mercy. Whisper your love into the depths of our souls and breathe your truth into our innermost being. Give us hope to endure the darkness. Light the way and lead us lest we stumble.
Good night, Lord. Be near to us.